Friday, March 8, 2013


Sorry I know this post took a turn for the ugly and I don't normal post things like this but I just had to get that out!

I swear that month just flew by but at the same time seemed to drag on. I went back and looked and I didn't post in February on this blog and only once on the 1st on SBB. I knew being home in GA (I keep having to tell myself that Ga is not home anymore, even after 5 months) for two weeks would effect my blogging but I thought I might get something up for the month. However, here we are on March 8th and I'm finally getting pen to paper or fingers to keys I guess in this case. I really do want to become better at keeping up with this and posting at least 3 times a week. That being said I don't want to post random crap if I'm not feeling it but I feel like I do need to post more if I'm going to be successful at this and reach an audience and really grow this blog into what I want it to be. I need to get back to the gym and back to cooking and back to life in general. Ever since I've been home from GA I've just been in this funk of not wanting to do anything, I still have yet to unpack but I did manage to get some deco up on the walls (with hubby's help). I just haven't felt up to doing anything and I don't know why. I think I'm just so sick and tired of sitting at home all day and not working for 5 months. I joke and say that I wouldn't care if it was the summer cause I'd be at the pool all day but who am I kidding I hate not working and making my own money plus no one want to see me in a bathing suit all day everyday. I know I have my Mary Kay and I tell people with the biggest fake smile on my face that I love TN and working MK full-time and it's working out great but lets be real for a minute cause that's what the blog world is all about right? MK is not paying the bills it never has. Don't get it twisted I love my MK and I have no one to blame but myself for it not working, I just wish I could wake up one day and it work but I know that's no going to happen if I don't put in the effort. But right now I just want to be back in a salon full time. I miss doing hair, it's my passion, I questioned that for a while but not doing it all day everyday for 5 months now I know more than ever that it is! I feel like I'm slowly losing my mind and my intelligence over here (not that I was that smart to begin with! I can't remember the easiest stuff anymore, it took me forever the other day to do an easy math equation (and I'm good at math). I feel like the longer I sit at home in front of the TV for 12+ hrs a day the stupider I get, I can barely carry a conversation anymore cause I don't know what's its like to talk to anyone other than my husband anymore. No one calls, no one visits...

On a good note: I should be getting my car back sometime early next week. I've been looking forward to this day for months now! and I might hopefully cross your fingers be getting a JOB soon :-)

Hey White Liar...

Is there such a thing as white lies? and what if something starts out as a white lie but grow into something bigger. I know we all lie or have lied in our life but if your doing it to protect someone does it make it okay?

I found out that someone has been lying to me and I know it's to protect me but it is tearing me up inside knowing that they are keeping something from me. Do I confront this person or just let it slide? It's not life treating or super serious but it makes me question their sincerity and my trust toward them. Am I going to question everything that comes out of their mouth now? I already have trust issues with people, is this going to deepen that?

I really am at a lost of what to do and that's why I am up at 5:30 am on a Friday morning when I should be sleeping cause my mind won't slow down long enough for me to sleep.

Thursday, January 31, 2013

Sorry Attempt For a Blog Post

This is my attempt at posting something today. I already wrote two post for my beauty blog so I guess I'm all blogged out for the day but I felt bad cause I haven't written in a couple of days. Right now I'm sitting at my desk in my office playing my favorite playlist on itunes that always seems to help me write (consisting of Adele and Florida Georgia Line) but the word are just not flowing, I even went through some of the drafts I have saved but none of them felt right to post today ( When I write negative or too personal blogs I never publish them, just save them and hope I have the courage one day to post them) 

So today I'll leave you a couple links to my other blog so you can read those post, one is up now, the other will be up tmrw morning. Also leave you with a link to Florida Georgia Line website, they are a relatively new duo out in country music fixing to release their second single. They are definitely my new favorite but I might be biased since I know one of the guys. They are also nominated for ACM's Best New Duo/Group if you want to go Get Your Vote On!

L is home now, so we're going to go hit the gym for about an hr. 

See Y'all Soon!

Saturday, January 26, 2013

I Work Out...

So like I've stated before I'm on this new health kick, it's not a New Years resolution that I'm going to quit in a few weeks/months or when I get to my goal weight. I know that this will have to be a lifestyle change for me. I've struggled with my weight for a good portion of my life. But I'll be 27 this year and I've already wasted most of my life being fat and I'm over it. L and I do want a family sooner rather than later and I don't want to be huffing and puffing while trying to chase my kids around. I know I'll never be a skinny-mini and I'm okay with that, I love my curves and I embrace my boobs and butt!

I'm wrapping up my second week with My Fitness Pal, it's an app that calculates the calories you should consume based on your height, age, and goal weight. Then you plug in your food and exercise for the day. My name is RVHajrizi is you want to follow my journey!
The first week was a little rough, trying to get used to what I can and cannot eat but I'm finally getting the hang of it. I've grown up in the south and everything we do revolves around food. I don't eat that much on a daily basis so I thought I was doing okay but I've realized that just because I don't eat a lot doesn't mean I'm eating healthy. I'm actually doing the opposite, I'm using all my calories on little unhealthy high carb foods.

I gave myself two weeks just trying to get my eating under control before I hit the gym. So Monday afternoon when L gets off work, we've got a date with the gym. We decided the nights he is off we'll go to the gym together and then the nights he is working I'll go by myself when I get up in the morning. I've done this before and was successful at it, I just stopped working out and eating good and I gained it all back plus some. But I'm not doing excuses this time, I don't have a reason not to go to the gym and not to eat healthy at home everyday, there are bigger things driving me this time and as lame as it sounds, I know I'm ready now! Plus I got a fabulous suit I've got to fit in in 6 months! (More on that later)
Side note: I'm so proud of my hubby for dropping some weight, I think he is down about 20 and has 16 more to go for his goal weight!

Sunday, January 20, 2013

Catch Up

Oh my how things have changed in the past year since my last post on October 10, I kinda was foreshadowing some changes in our life but I had no clue what God had in store for us. We were in the middle of a move to my parents, crazy work schedules, super busy social calenders and our 1 Year Anniversary.  

We officially moved into my parents back in Nov 2011 thinking we were actually looking at a move to Switzerland but months went by and the work visas were taking forever, so we started to look at our other options. In Aug 2012 unbenonced to me hubby started looking at transfers with in his company. At first there were no openings but he checked back about 2 weeks later and there was an opening for the exact job he does in the city we wanted to move, if that wasn't a sign I don't know what is. He went up for a interview on a Thursday and was told to report for work 2 weeks later. (they actually wanted him to start that Monday). So we had two weeks to pack up our lives, find a place to live and tell our friends and family (keep in mind we hadn't told anyone we were even thinking about moving).

So as of October 5, 2012 we now reside in Chattanooga, Tn... I know, WTF, trust me no one is as more surprised by this news then we are!

With the move I had to quite  my job and still haven't found a full time position up here in Tn but I'm consitantly on the look out. So I've spent the last 3 months trying to figure out what I want to do and taking advatage of my free time by being a good housewife.

 L is loving the transfer! He no longer has to work 12 hr shifts going in at 3am and spending over a hr on his commute. He now gets up at 6:30, out the door by 7 and at work no later than 7:20. He now works a normal 8hr shift, our bank account defenilty misses the overtime pay but the transfer came with a pay raise so it's starting to even out. And because he doesn't work crazy long hrs L has been overjoyed to pick up some shifts at a local restaurant working in the kitchen.  

Friends and Family:
We miss our family, I have never lived more than 30 minutes form my parents, let alone outside the Gwinnett/Walton Co area of Ga. It helped that I got to go to Ga for about 2 weeks before Christmas and L came down the Friday before and stayed til Tuesday.

I think we miss our social lives more than anything! We spend every moment not at work just hanging out at the apartment together. Needless to say we have watched a ton of movies and played video games. Our new addiction is doing puzzles together on our iPads, we are dorks and race to see who can finish first (the only time L has won was when I was sick). I know we need to get out and meet new people but I miss my old ones!  I got to see quite at few of them when I was in town for Christmas too. I'm actually leaving tomorrow to spend a couple days at my parents and I can't wait to see some friends and get out and have some fun.

We spent out 2nd Anniversary here in Tn, I don't really remember what we did cause things were still kinda crazy from the move but I'm sure I made dinner and we probably watched a movie. Not that exciting but that's us, we are just an old married couple.

It's defenitly the change we were looking for, it hasn't all been rainbows and sunshine but we are enjoying this new city and starting to learn all the ends and outs of Chatt and Tn.


Call me naive, call me out of touch with reality, I know there are bad people and bad things that happen in the world but I can't dwell on them and let them affect how I live my life, cause living every day in fear of what might happen is mot a life I want to live!

Friday, January 18, 2013

I'm back....

 ... for real this time!

It's been over a year since my last post and that's just ridiculous but I'm back, I'm focus and I'm determined to make something of myself and this blog in 2013. I will be adding a lot of new feature this year as I have dreams and goals I want to achieve this year.
I don't believe in New Years resolutions cause I always break them but I'm do believe in a purpose driven life and I'm ready to live mine.

I love to make women feel beautiful and share my love and passion for that. Whether this road is still with Mary Kay I'm not sure at this moment but I know that it will unfold if I let God show me the way. So in the mean time I'm going to expand my horizons and learn about all aspects/brands of the beauty industry, hair and makeup.

I'm also jumping on the health band wagon but not as some crash diet fade or just trying to lose weight but a healthy lifestyle change in general. there are things I have planned for 2013 that require me to be at my healthiest emotionally, physical, mentally and financially. So one day a week will be my weigh in and accountability post. And I will also have random post about my mental and emotional journey and our financially journey as a couple.

But my first love of food and cooking will not be hindered by this new healthy lifestyle. I'm not one of those people who tend to cut things out of their diet, portion control is the key. Lets face it I'm a sweet whore. If anything it will increase my cooking blogs and knowledge because I will be cooking 6 nights a week and doing food journals and menu planning and will choose Hubby and mines favorite dish of the week to vlog.

Yes I said VLOG! I will also be spreading my wings into the vlog and YouTube world!

My first official blog back will be an update of what has been going on in the H household for the past year. Trust me there has been a lot of changes!

Looking forward to new faces and catching up with old ones as I dive right back into this amazing adventure!